If I had Six Million Dollars....

To dream the impossible dream.......

and with God all things are possible.

My dream is....

If I had six million dollars I could reach the world.

Seems like a lot of money and the money is not really the purpose of this post. I am mostly getting my ideas on paper.  I am not looking for money here, but if you do know a couple billionaires send them my way, please.  (ETVFCO@GMAIL.com!)   Note I did get an email a while back that I was the sole beneficiary of a $12 million dollar inheritance.   Funny it was sent out to many undisclosed recipients. 

 But I do want to at least get the thoughts on paper so if I do send out letters or have people praying then it at least is out there.

This is my vision.

Mostly I am looking for something to change my fate.  Like in the Disney movie Brave.  The girl in brave was destined for a life of royalty and had her whole life mapped out but in her was the desire for adventure and something less binding.  I am content where I am at. If God wants me as a pharmacist the rest of my life that is something I can live with.  I enjoy working the pharmacy job, it is very busy and productive and satisfying in an earthly sense.  It is well respected by the world and well paying and it takes care of my family.  However in reality I am no more than a Christian Bartender.  There are some serious issues with pharmacy that are very ungodly and fly in the face with the God of the Bible.  Antidepressants, anti anxiety, anti psychotics, hormones for sex changes,  birth control (which causes abortions and miscarriages), the morning after pill (called Plan B and you can get it covered by Medicaid without a prescription for free), narcotics, ADHD meds, HIV meds (that our taxes pay for and remove the fear of the disease-- and get this, I was filling HIV meds for a guy and filling VIAGRA for him!), etc.

I want though the freedom to pursue my dreams.   I basically am locked in this life for 3 reasons until some miracles come through.

1. I am a pharmacist and every church I have visited and attended thinks that God surely can't be calling me because I am a pharmacist.  If I lied from the beginning and said I flipped burgers at Burger King I would have been ushered into the ministry.

2. A prophet is not accepted in his home country.  I am not like I said the same as the prophets in the Old Testament.  Today there are not really any prophets in that sense, but if you preach on the street or have some sense about you, and read the Bible and read the newspaper and are not asleep to what is going on, you have a lot to say that will ring out like a prophet.  Things are going to get worse, this world is going to hell, most folks are going to be burning forever, and Jesus is coming.   The average church knows some of that in their heads but their hearts are far from embracing that and they are content to holy huddle until the rapture and not live like they believe it.  I love the church, but the church wants a warm and cozy speaker not an on fire full of the Holy Ghost PREACHER, especially one that isn't a guest Preacher that won't be back for another year.  

3.  I am tied down like the donkey was that Jesus rode into Jerusalem.  I didn't intentionally get tied down, but I think the Lord tied me to teach me some lessons.  I have no problem working the next 10 years to get my debt down to zero and maybe save enough to get 1/8th of the dream going.  However through circumstances I think the Lord is doing something else.   My plan initially was to retire from the prison pharmacy after 25 years and live off the pension and work full time.  Then the boss left and a new boss ran me out of there and the timing was the Lords as the closest pharmacy to my house happened to be one they suddenly had an opening for.  I was hired there as manager and was content and it was the town I grew up in.  Well 2 years later my good boss left and a new one took over.  She fired 18 of us in 6 months for petty stuff.  The company forgot an emergency order of prescription paper so I contacted a store by my mom and had her deliver one the next day when I was working and they fired me because she wasn't an employee.  That was the smokescreen because the real reason, according to my old boss, was because I was against the morning after pill.  It took me 6 months to find a job and I landed an overnight position.  I worked it for 6 months but had to give it up when my wife got pregnant and we both were on our last nerves.  I was put now into a part time position and only had 2 shifts in January and February.  I like the part time but we don't have any health insurance so that is a bit of a faith tester and God is meeting our needs but I am not able to get ahead on the debt roller coaster.

Why the debt?  Good question.  I might have made some rash decisions but I thought that if I obeyed God he would come through when I needed him.  We have always tried to give instead of just holding onto our money.  When I was newly saved I loaned a Pastor $3000 that turned into a gift and a while later secretly paid my neighbors $800 apartment rent one month when he was struggling. When I was single, 7 years ago, I had felt the Lord calling me into full time ministry.  I had $20,000 saved up to live on and so I quit my job.  I found I had money but no message.  This was February 2006.  In March 2006 God put on my heart to just give that away during our mission conference.  I wrote a $20,000 check.  Now I had no message, no money and no job!  Yet the Lord knows.  I soon was hired by the prison I had been preaching at and worked full time soon after.  I met my wife Feb 2006 at my new church and we were engaged May 2006, married Sept 2006, and soon to be 5 kids later in 2013.  In that time, I gave most of a tax refund to my brother in law to buy a car, we gave $50,000 to our building project ($35,000 of which came from an inheritance from my grandfather), we took on a loan we are still paying for $33,000 of which we gave a Pastor $30,000, I gave the asst pastor my wife's Ford Focus, we were giving $1000 a month to missions for a year or two, and we gave $1000 a year to the camp meeting for several years.  On top of tithing.  And giving and buying my tracts and Chick tracts.  I just bought $200 worth of Chick tracts last month and gave almost the last bit of them out tonight.  Mostly I want more to give more. 

God will give THROUGH YOU what he won't give TO YOU. 

If 1,000 churches gave me $1000 dollars I would have a million dollars.

If 5,000 churches gave me $1000 dollars I would have 5 million dollars.

There are 50 states and you would just need 100 churches per state to do it.  Well, not including the states that have less than 100 churches in the whole state!

If 10,000 churches gave me $20 I would have $200000!  (minus $5000 in postage mailing letters!).

If 400,000 people gave me 50 cents I would have $200,000!

$200000 would be nice because it would open major doors up if I could have everything paid for, and my wife happy with me being able to provide some of her wants.   She has been a great sport, but I  gave her car away when she wasn't looking and I don't even have the money now that I am part time to bring my pregnant wife the the 5th time a brand new mattress so she can sleep comfortably!  But I did find money to buy my tracts.  So maybe I am not as spiritual as I think.  We bash guys who spend every dollar on the latest gun but won't buy their wives anything decent to drive and here I am doing the same thing!

If I had  $200,000 right now, I would immediately do the following.  1.  $20,000 tithe.  2. $10,000 for 10 titles of 10,000 Chick tracts for the church.  3.  $20,000 more for the church building project.  4.  $5,000 to get my tracts and books printed.  5.  $33,000 to pay off my mortgage 6.  $10,000 for the state health insurance I thought was free when I was starting my new job but didn't have insurance for 90 days so I called and found out I still had the state income based insurance.  And then I find out I didn't report though my new income so I am now hit with a bill!  7.  $4000 to pay my aunt back for the used van we bought when I had no job and $1000 to pay my brother back 8.  $12000 to get now a bigger used van as we need more seating!!! 9.  Some home improvements my wife would appreciate as I gave so much to the church she feels neglected!!!  New furnace, replace bay windows that mold have eaten, new king sized bed and mattress; our fridge leaks and freezes all our vegetables; our dryer shakes and moves across the basement; our dishwasher leaks all over the kitchn; etc.  10.  $8000 left on credit cards etc from when i was unemployed 11. $16000 to pay off the church loan.  12. $10000 to my Evangelist friend who is a prayer warrior and lives on pennies and prayers.  13.  Money to get my website finished and polished.  14.  Money to cover my son's next tuition and cover bills, taxes, insurances, and expenses 15. money to rent an office and start the ETVFC part of the ministry 16. money for upcoming mission trips to Scotland, St. Lucia, etc.

If I had 6 million I would (note I do not work for the church!) pay off the church loan/mortgage.  We currently renovated an old Tops Supermarket and haven't sold our old building.  I would pay off all the mortgages,and give money to renovate the other half of the new building.  I would ask for offices to be built with 12 cubicles and a conference room for discipleship and meetings.  This would be for the workers of the End Times Vol Fire Co.  Extra money would be for tracts, pay roll, equipment, etc.  I would love to get a radio broadcast up, get media production rolling and videos out etc.

Then after that is up and running, phase 2 would begin and run simultaneously.  The Old Time Health Care Co.  I also see a great need to start a new off shoot for evangelism, something new the Lord gave me.  Health Care Evangelism.  Giving health care seminars at churches with a push toward turning from prescription medication and getting healthier but also tying that to spiritually and preaching the gospel with the pharmacy theme ideas God gave me, like Jesus is not a flu shot.  It would have plenty of facts on how bad modern health care is for us, etc.  

That is my dream.

In the meantime,  pharmacy is my fate.

I am content doing either but I know my days are numbered being a pharmacist. 

I emptied my bank accounts, and got filled with the spirit, and am now waiting on God to open the windows of heaven.

Until then, I will not buy a ticket for this weeks $93 million dollar Mega Millions lottery.

But if you win, know that God has a good place to send some of the winnings.  (I know, 50 cents!)

After the $60 million in taxes of course.